Thursday, December 20, 2012

A Day Full of Noms

The eve of armageddon. Nothing really exciting... Well, not like it IS suppose to...but...atleast something right? Oh wells... That just proves nothing is nothing is happening. The gospel hasn't gone out yet. The Lord ain't coming back yet. He is anticipating though. And I shouldn't be slacking.

Anyways, today was a day full of noms as per title. This blog had been filled with I-can't-see-tomorrow posts that it's getting so bleak and bleary that even I shun it. My procrastination in publishing posts doesn't help either. These are suppose to be 'letters to future me'! What does pathetic posts like such do to future me?! I'm an idiot. Aaand, I am still writing that 3rdwave post. Half a month has gone by... Procrastination at its best!

ANYWAYS, today was a good day. It was a day of food. Well, not EXTRA-ordinarily good, I've been eating my way to today, but today's noms were different. I've got that feeling I should put something up,

Vicky, Sui Chin and I, along with two others, we went to Midvalley. Nothing special, but upon arrival we stuffed ourselves with Snowflake-that glorious dessert. NOM! Next, off to Sushi Zanmai. My second take at that chain. Beautiful, beautiful food. I took no photos and have no copies of them either; but they were beautiful. Pleasant to the eye as well to the taste buds. NOMNOM!

With bloated stomachs, what else to do at a mall if not fashion shopping? Mango's 50% sounds inviting. And there we were, flipping through limp cloth, but Borders next to Zanmai attract me more. Less crowd, better air, less hassle. The way I like it. However, time waits for none. Couldn't have my sweet time there. We have something planned for the night. We have to hurry up. Chop chop through the clothes. But RM9 basic tees at PDI was a steal. Two for me, seven Sui Chin and Vicky a whooping nine! Family.

Winter solstice's drawing near. Or passed. But who say being in dorm, being late or early restricts us from the tradition? Food tradition to be exact. For me at least. A few items from Carrefour and we're on our way back. Heavy rain upon arrival on dormitory grounds does not hinder me from taking a quick shower and walking over to P3, the block where the others are at.

What can be called 'our dinner' was all sweets. Almost. Filled glutinous rice balls in soy base, mango pudding to wash it down, cheese franks and cherry tomatoes for greens...or reds. Dinner! Simple yet heart-warming. Over at friends', eating, talking nothingness... Though due to my speech I get ignored a lot but all was good. Better than being in my room, facing the monitor, either assignments or drama. My social life out the window. Senior roomies have course mates all over the dorm; Indian roomie, out or giggling to her phone, singing odd tunes or bringing friends in for chats when you're sleeping. That loud, high pitch Tamil chatter. O-EM-GEE!! Not being racist or anything but it's just her... Why have people in when I'm just next to your bunk trying to turn in early? It's not like you can't see me sleeping... Okay. Imma save it for another entry. Sheesh! Why spoil this?

Anyways, noms are all good. I think I can just succumb to gluttony-one of the seven deadly sins. Now I understand MinFood relationship. Might consider being a MinFood shipper too. Hah! Stuffing your face in stress, in joy, in hunger... So much reasons to eat! Good food! And it's in abundance too! But my appetite's gonna break my poor dad's back. Not that he's anywhere near but I should to something to eat on my own.

"To lengthen thy life, lessen thy meals" - Benjamin Franklin
Came from a doctor. PhD. Medical? I'm not sure. So he still should know best right? With his wits.

Peace out.

Tuesday, December 4, 2012

Surreal Weekend 2 - Meeting 3rdwave, Brian Joo and Alexander

Who would have thought I'd be meeting 3rdwave, Brian and Xander one day? I wouldn't, although I do hope for it...

I definitely did not expect that day to come so soon. It was really a pleasant surprise how the events turned out to be-like an early Christmas present. My first, and the awesomest (most awesome).
So I met up with Joy and all throughout the journey to the event venue, we were spazzing, trying to keep our excitement. Well, at least I knew I were.

We alighted at Kelana Jaya station and had a short walk to a.... ...residential area... It was drizzling. And we weren't sure where were we. Not good... Asked around the shop-lots and no one knew where Plaza Moyang was! Double not good... *sigh* Nevertheless, we kept moving and met a police car. Asked directions, and it happened to be just higher up the slope. We'd never expect Lincolin university to be in the middle of a residential area!

Got there, bought CDs and were seated at the Vee-Ah-Pee (VIP) seats babeh! Thanks Joy for the quick thinking.

Flashing lights came on, emcees went up and down, kids from the orphanage did some cool numbers and the stage went dark again. Guitar riffs started playing. The intro to 'I Stand'. Silhouette of a person came striding on stage. The lights came on and there Brian was! Along with pastor Johnny leading the 3rdwave band. They played and sang, and we in the audience just sat back and enjoyed the performance. I didn't have my camera with me so no fuss about capturing the moment. Did try with phone camera though but couldn't get decent stuffs. Better not be bothered and keep the moments printed in the head.
After a few numbers, they all went backstage and surfaced a few moments later. Came in Brian and PJ with some short ments before introducing their last and youngest member on stage. Xander came hopping onto stage with the Gangnam horse dance. He's really into that dance I think cause he just pop into that hopping dance whenever he thinks is appropriate. Cute dude he is.

The night flew by and soon the ushers went on stage to set up the tables for the AUTOGRAPH SESSION!!! YAY!!! WE GET TO SEE THEM UP CLOSE!!! AND SHINSHIP!!! OMGOMGOMG!!!
Joy and I were churning our brains to how to get a real close shot when they were signing. But when it came to be our turn, with our cameras ready, we were told that no photography were allowed. *sigh* Oh wells... And they wouldn't do name signs either!! T.T *wails* I want a name sign!! *throws tantrum in my head*

***conti-ed AGES later 7.10.13***
After our turn, we wouldn't give up on getting a good close shot of them so we stood in front of the stage (so much for worship concert huh? Sad...) and glued our eyes and lenses at them. Somehow, I like Brian more that night... So humble... Or Brian changed my perspective of him that night-not that it was bad initially but probably cause he was older? From the first generation of idols? I mean, I entered kpopdom when the 2nd or 3rd generation is at their peek (IF i didn't get the generation timeline wrong...nyways, entered in late 2007 so you know). Xander was cold or distant... Maybe tired? (someone shouted 'excuses' in my head and booed at him...but it's all good. I mind slapped the voice).

*Things happened during the signing and some memories had faded...but my brian will I shall not write it out.*

At the end of the signing, when they are saying their goodbyes, Xander and Brian fooled around...and I was so close to a photo of it... It's in my phone and laptop and facebook... Brain, if this blog is Dear Diary, I'll know it... So I'll skip the details...or till the next time I feel like editing this...probably another year later.

That's all.

Ps. Pardon me for my uncontrolled Virginia Woolf writing.

Monday, December 3, 2012

Surreal Weekend 1 - Journey of Faith

Who knows what's gonna pop up in life? Nobody! Only God knows. And God is good. He's an awesome God!

So after seeing my previous angry and mad-at-everything-everyone posts, one might thought I'd never see daylight here. Or that was what I thought... But praise the Lord! He is good!

I couldn't thank Him enough for His arrangement for me. Although to some, especially some saints, it might seem that I am chasing after worldly things... But all throughout this journey, I felt, I was really trusting on Him.

Firstly, leaving campus and jaunting alone to the heart of the city, I had friends advising me against it. A complex place Bukit Bintang area is. Piercing stares at vulnerable looking targets and I am definitely in that target as gullible as I am. To make it worse, my navigation skills are at the top of the reversal.
Then having an 8 pm show, predicted by the time the session ends, it would be late. Impossible for me to travel alone back to hostel, like it or not, I need to find an accommodation. So I hooked up with Joy, a friend I've met online, and we've known each other for years. Now, who says we can't trust cyber friends? Fandom friends are the best!

I know you must've started thinking how foolish I am and what a foolish thing I'm doing. Only words exchange through social media sites and texts, Facebook photos and had never met. An idea of a lunatic! Especially with all the cases happening in the world, I still am so naive to put my safely out there, risking to meet them.

Of course I had my doubts, if not I wouldn't have these sentences, they had been in my head since the beginning. Consulted my friends, my sister... My worries were shown. Was at the verge of giving up on seeing them. But prayer became my courage... Plans were that after the event, I would follow her home, which coincidentally was the week she goes back to her parents place, is where I shall spend the night. I prayed to the Lord that I'd be in good hands, His and theirs... I had nothing else but faith.. I've never felt so vulnerable. I only had Him.

Now, doubts and worries aside, it was really a blessing how it happened. It was a lazy night where I was taking my zillionth break from my books and reaching for the phone, I chanced upon a giveaway contest by KAvenyou. '25 fastest fingers to share the event photo and tag KAvenyou' wins. I'd never expect myself to be in the fastest 25. Especially not after the slow loading and KAvenyou's status update 'We've found our 25 winners just within 5 minutes!' which was updated 10 minutes ago... What chances do I have? Nevertheless, I still checked out the winners' list out of curiosity. And there I am, number 21 if my memory serves me well... OH WOW! I've won a pair of tickets to see 3rdwave's Ignite Kpop Charity Concert 2012! I was shocked! And surprised! And excited! How could I not be? I'd be meeting Brian Joo and Alexander!!!

It was just surreal.. =)

Wednesday, November 28, 2012


I've been suppressing emotions physically for so long till I feel so foreign to tears. There are times when you let it flow to keep your sanity but I can't even do it now. I envy the girls in dramas where their tears flow as they like. My eyes are just dry. Even with stimulation. Even when my heart is in a confusing mess.
I'm stuck in this numb stupor.

Monday, November 26, 2012

KKB Bakti Siswa - The Awesomest Thing Ever

Imma be REAL frank in this post.. I ain't gonna sensor no shit I'm sayin. Been holding back and biting my tongue for too long. You've fuckking crossed the fuckking line.

First things first. For all you know, a wedding comes only once for a person. Unless you with your 'hak keistimewaan' can do it for another three fucking times. So normally, we only do it once. And I had to miss this witnessing fucking FOREVER!!!!

Now, when you say that Bakti Siswa (baksis) is compulsory for Kokurikulum Berkredit (KKB), I respect your words although we're doing shit during that precious three hours on a Saturday. Kemahiran Insaniah to be taught in a classroom like Moral Studies-does nothing to us expect wasting time. That's just NOT the ways to be teaching these stuffs..! I'm not even sure if these stuffs can be thought like that...

Then I just HAD to be slotted in this class where the megaproject involves going out...FAR.. You couldn't man up and set the date so you had dates changing back and fro. First I thought I had to miss my mid-sem break for this... Well, of course I was glad when I get to go home, but I had my mind prepared to go without! Such mental preparations aren't easy to make for someone as green as me.

Due to this, I couldn't make LOADS of my decisions. Libra are fickle folks but NOT to this extent! I had to keep saying 'hold that spot for me, I can't confirm yet' and shit like that. I've got to tell the bride you know! They have to fuckking plan for how things are gonna go!

The most pathetic thing is that we don't even have a fuckking approval yet! WHATDAFAK!!! So tell me, if eventually we still don't have that approval, are we gonna man up and go ahead or be that fuckking headless chicken and cancel the whole fuckking thing??!!

... ... ...

Well, atleast someone could have warned me I'd have no life for one semester before I sign up for this shit.

M&Ms peace out,

Wednesday, November 14, 2012


Depressing is when my non-existant waist becomes bulging.. Not a pretty picture...I know.

Tuesday, November 13, 2012

Am I....?

Am I a lousy friend?
Am I a complainer?
Am I a hub of negative energy for you?
Am I... ...that lousy?
Just, am I?

I am critical.
I am a perfectionist.
I am annoyingly vocal at negative stuffs.

But, I am just shy.
I am just trying to protrct myself.
I am just not letting my emotions flow.

This is my hide... ...I'm just trying to protect myself.

Friday, October 26, 2012

Deserted Dorm

Alone in the dorm room
Doing nothing in particular.
Should be selling those assignments,
But with a head on drugs,
I don't think it's possible.

The best thing about a deserted dorm is the internet speed.
It's not lighting fast but hey, ahead I can see you.

This is a terrible poem
But fuck this shit,
I'm sick!

Monday, October 1, 2012

triple cheers?

Hip-hip-hurray for uni life. Yay. -_-

Socializing to social-dying

My roomie is taking socializing a WHOLE new level.


I've got my reasons and way of doing stuffs. JUST FUCKING SHUT THE FUCK UP!!!!

and me wearing contact lens is NOT a FUCKING "WHY?" question!!!


bitches and buses

B'ches talking bout 'ladies first' and shiz. If you wanna be a lady, keep them pushing and shoving to the minimal! You push and shove like 'em street rats and hoes to get a free dime in the street you dare call yourself a lady. Wait you fucking turn to get on the fucking bus! We all waited.

uni time!

it's uni time! ignore the previous optimistic wanna-be posts. it just won't happen here. this will be my little documentation of my thoughts through life here.

can't say everything out. I'll be prison-ed or murdered.

I talk to no-one; I speak to myself.

Peace out,

Thursday, April 19, 2012

It's been a long time...

...since I last blogged and actually made used of blogger. I felt so retarded typing the post before this. So handicapped, so lost.

Seems that there's less folks using blogger nowadays? At least my circle of friends cut down their blogging. I guess that's why I halted it too. Or could I use the word hiatus in this context?



Okay. So I've finally finished the series, Avatar: The Last Air Bender, Legend of Aang recently.
And the end was so sad for me! Not because it was a sad ending, but the fact that the series is coming to an end is a sad fact!

Yeah, I know, I'm years late. Nevertheless, I got to know that there will be a new series, a sequel to The Last Airbender. Well, not will, there IS a new series. 
The premiere aired on Nickelodeon on April 14, 2012; however, the first two episodes premiered online on March 24-25, 2012.  
Legend of Korra!!

I'm waiting eagerly to watch it. However, couldn't get a clear version of it yet. There're some uploads on youtube but they're aren't the best of quality. Nevertheless, I thank thee yo-ho pirate comrades.


Monday, April 9, 2012

Little Things in Life

Often we're too engrossed in our fast paced life till we forget the little things that makes life sustainable and beautiful. This songs reminds us of one of them: to cherish our parents before it's too late.

The subtitles might be a direct translation but nevertheless, it is still an art from one language to another. Overall, the words are nicely placed and the meaning is deep. Let it touch your soul.

Sunday, March 11, 2012

When All Comes At Once

The stress of doing the university applications and meeting the government date lines. Wish me luck in getting into my desired university and course.


Monday, February 27, 2012

The Many Sides of Me

So, people have many sides.
The basics:
- private life
- public life
- secret life

So many sides of life, I seem to like virtual life the best.
Though many unseen dangers lurking, but hey, isn't that the same in real life too?
Too bad excelling in farmville doesn't feed the tummy.
Well, not that I play farmville but, you see the pattern.

Conscience regret: I'm suppose to love the church life.
The first priority in life but...
I'm still learning. Though my process is slow...
It takes time to adapt but, four years?
Too slow for the others to comprehend.

People are too judgemental.
But, remember these:

Matthew 7:1-5
“Judge not, that you be not judged. For with the judgment you pronounce you will be judged, and with the measure you use it will be measured to you. Why do you see the speck that is in your brother's eye, but do not notice the log that is in your own eye? Or how can you say to your brother, ‘Let me take the speck out of your eye,’ when there is the log in your own eye? You hypocrite, first take the log out of your own eye, and then you will see clearly to take the speck out of your brother's eye.

Sunday, February 26, 2012

Of late...

I'm picking up guitar.
Although I haven't really mastered the piano.
But it's okays...
Though Jack of all trades, masters of none.
I'll never be a master in any instrument anyways...
It's not pessimistic thoughts.
These are realistic thoughts.
And using steel strings on tender flesh is sadistic.

Oh dear, it's so hard for me to blog nowadays.
Could it be that I haven't been writing for a while now,
or my life is just dull, routined, and I don't get to know or learn loads of new things.
But I am learning though.
About children, about people, body language, how they think.
I like that.
I analyse people.

Friday, February 17, 2012

Teaching English?

I've started working.
Teaching. As a English tutor.
Should I use 'a' or 'an' for 'English tutor'?

Anyways, I'm teaching the younger classes. So the basic, that is, for them.
6 days per week. 2 and a half hour the most per day. Unless I start stacking in more classes.
Which is pretty unlikely, for a lazy bum like me.
I need my internet time, my teen life (though I'm heading towards my twenties).

For pocket money, the pay is pretty good.
Considering that this is my first working experience.

The Interview With God

The Interview With God

I dreamed I had an interview with God.

 "Come in," God said. "So, you would like to interview Me?"

"If you have the time," I said.

God smiled and said:
"My time is eternity and is enough to do everything; What uestions do you have in mind to ask me?"

"What surprises you most about mankind?"

God answered:

"That they get bored of being children, are in a rush to grow up, and then long to be children again...

That they lose their health to make money and then lose their money to restore their health...

That by thinking anxiously about the future, they forget the present, such that they live neither for the present nor the future...

That they live as if they will never die, and they die as if they had never lived."

God's hands took mine and we were silent for awhile and then I asked... "As a parent, what are some of life's lessons you want your children to learn?"

God replied with a smile:

"To learn that they cannot make anyone love them. What they can do is to let themselves be loved...

To learn that what is most valuable is not what they have in their lives, but who they have in their lives...

To learn that it is not good to compare themselves to others. All will be judged individually on their own merits, not as a group on a comparison basis...

To learn that a rich person is not the one who has the most, but is one who needs the least...

To learn that it only takes a few seconds to open profound wounds in persons we love, and that it takes many years to heal them...

To learn to forgive by practicing forgiveness...

To learn that there are persons that love them dearly, but simply do not know how to express or show their feelings...

To learn that money can buy everything but happiness...

To learn that two people can look at the same thing and see it totally different...

To learn that a true friend is someone who knows everything about them, and likes them anyway...

To learn that it is not always enough that they be forgiven by others, but that they have to forgive themselves."

 I sat there for awhile enjoying the moment. I thanked Him for his time and for all that He has done for me and my family, and He replied, "Anytime. I'm here 24 hours a day. All you have to do is ask for me, and I'll answer." 


Recently, Cassiopeia's beloved Jaejoong tweeted three quotes from this story. Inspiring and moving.

Thursday, February 2, 2012

Self Censorship

What can be said, what is best kept hidden.

Society today...
We fear too much of offending others.
We worry too much about opinions of others.
We care too much of what others might think of us.

We care... ...too much - to the extend that we can't have selfless fun without regretting.
We have to protect the image, our reputation.
Our pride, our name.

The condemning mouth of society.
Which will spat at you if you give it a chance.
No leeway, no second chances.
That's how it goes.

Well, at least that's how I think it goes...


I'm back again.
But you probably won't be seeing the optimism I promised.
I'm just too dark a girl to be showing that much sunshine.
Well, at least for now.
Can't be under the weather for too long.
Let's not try and invite depression and real mental illness.

Let's see my vision for the revival of this blog...
I see... ...a normal e-journal:
-some sharing
-some preaching
-some expressing
-some talking to myself
-some talking to you
-some this... ...some that...

Yeah. Something like that.
But let's just hope this last longer that a girl changes clothes.