Monday, February 27, 2012

The Many Sides of Me

So, people have many sides.
The basics:
- private life
- public life
- secret life

So many sides of life, I seem to like virtual life the best.
Though many unseen dangers lurking, but hey, isn't that the same in real life too?
Too bad excelling in farmville doesn't feed the tummy.
Well, not that I play farmville but, you see the pattern.

Conscience regret: I'm suppose to love the church life.
The first priority in life but...
I'm still learning. Though my process is slow...
It takes time to adapt but, four years?
Too slow for the others to comprehend.

People are too judgemental.
But, remember these:

Matthew 7:1-5
“Judge not, that you be not judged. For with the judgment you pronounce you will be judged, and with the measure you use it will be measured to you. Why do you see the speck that is in your brother's eye, but do not notice the log that is in your own eye? Or how can you say to your brother, ‘Let me take the speck out of your eye,’ when there is the log in your own eye? You hypocrite, first take the log out of your own eye, and then you will see clearly to take the speck out of your brother's eye.

Sunday, February 26, 2012

Of late...

I'm picking up guitar.
Although I haven't really mastered the piano.
But it's okays...
Though Jack of all trades, masters of none.
I'll never be a master in any instrument anyways...
It's not pessimistic thoughts.
These are realistic thoughts.
And using steel strings on tender flesh is sadistic.

Oh dear, it's so hard for me to blog nowadays.
Could it be that I haven't been writing for a while now,
or my life is just dull, routined, and I don't get to know or learn loads of new things.
But I am learning though.
About children, about people, body language, how they think.
I like that.
I analyse people.

Friday, February 17, 2012

Teaching English?

I've started working.
Teaching. As a English tutor.
Should I use 'a' or 'an' for 'English tutor'?

Anyways, I'm teaching the younger classes. So the basic, that is, for them.
6 days per week. 2 and a half hour the most per day. Unless I start stacking in more classes.
Which is pretty unlikely, for a lazy bum like me.
I need my internet time, my teen life (though I'm heading towards my twenties).

For pocket money, the pay is pretty good.
Considering that this is my first working experience.

The Interview With God

The Interview With God

I dreamed I had an interview with God.

 "Come in," God said. "So, you would like to interview Me?"

"If you have the time," I said.

God smiled and said:
"My time is eternity and is enough to do everything; What uestions do you have in mind to ask me?"

"What surprises you most about mankind?"

God answered:

"That they get bored of being children, are in a rush to grow up, and then long to be children again...

That they lose their health to make money and then lose their money to restore their health...

That by thinking anxiously about the future, they forget the present, such that they live neither for the present nor the future...

That they live as if they will never die, and they die as if they had never lived."

God's hands took mine and we were silent for awhile and then I asked... "As a parent, what are some of life's lessons you want your children to learn?"

God replied with a smile:

"To learn that they cannot make anyone love them. What they can do is to let themselves be loved...

To learn that what is most valuable is not what they have in their lives, but who they have in their lives...

To learn that it is not good to compare themselves to others. All will be judged individually on their own merits, not as a group on a comparison basis...

To learn that a rich person is not the one who has the most, but is one who needs the least...

To learn that it only takes a few seconds to open profound wounds in persons we love, and that it takes many years to heal them...

To learn to forgive by practicing forgiveness...

To learn that there are persons that love them dearly, but simply do not know how to express or show their feelings...

To learn that money can buy everything but happiness...

To learn that two people can look at the same thing and see it totally different...

To learn that a true friend is someone who knows everything about them, and likes them anyway...

To learn that it is not always enough that they be forgiven by others, but that they have to forgive themselves."

 I sat there for awhile enjoying the moment. I thanked Him for his time and for all that He has done for me and my family, and He replied, "Anytime. I'm here 24 hours a day. All you have to do is ask for me, and I'll answer." 


Recently, Cassiopeia's beloved Jaejoong tweeted three quotes from this story. Inspiring and moving.

Thursday, February 2, 2012

Self Censorship

What can be said, what is best kept hidden.

Society today...
We fear too much of offending others.
We worry too much about opinions of others.
We care too much of what others might think of us.

We care... ...too much - to the extend that we can't have selfless fun without regretting.
We have to protect the image, our reputation.
Our pride, our name.

The condemning mouth of society.
Which will spat at you if you give it a chance.
No leeway, no second chances.
That's how it goes.

Well, at least that's how I think it goes...


I'm back again.
But you probably won't be seeing the optimism I promised.
I'm just too dark a girl to be showing that much sunshine.
Well, at least for now.
Can't be under the weather for too long.
Let's not try and invite depression and real mental illness.

Let's see my vision for the revival of this blog...
I see... ...a normal e-journal:
-some sharing
-some preaching
-some expressing
-some talking to myself
-some talking to you
-some this... ...some that...

Yeah. Something like that.
But let's just hope this last longer that a girl changes clothes.